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Fool's Proposal Thursday, November 12, 2009

"April Fool!!!!! Yaaaaaaaaaaay!!!" , he shouted into the phone... He waited for a response from the other side as he literally jumped on the hostel roof, laughing uncontrollably, so much that tears welled up in his eyes. He wondered if they were indeed from laughing :)...

Silence...no response yet, he wondered if she hung up. "Hello?... hello???", he searched for her response.
"Its not funny, Navneet(he was yet to be christened as Navi...the name which will be his identity for many coming years, perhaps forever)", she spoke softly and paused again.
He became serious now. No laughing, no jumping, no pretense, no more. He again said,"arrey it was just a prank re....watch the time :P", and he looks into his cell time and said, "Its, past 12....today's Fool's day ...ha ha ha ha"

Again silence..."Navneet, you're so mean!!! I should have seen that coming. But again, when it comes to you, its not easy to guess". He thought for a moment if she really believed him, then became sure by her tone. Still, there was something changed in her behaviour that made him suspicious. It had to be fool proof....Either this way, or no way....There can not be a middle way. "I can't afford to be caught", he thought to himself and tried changing the topic.

"So who are YOU gonna fool today?? Now that you have been already fooled :P ??",he asked her, praying she doesn't get any hint or clue about the reality...His eyes became moist, and he was sure it wasn't from laughing this time...or ever... He controlled the emotions inside him.."This is not the time to think about it... I will think when I have time for myself... I will have plenty of it now...", he said to himself, trying to console his aching heart, telling it that he knew this would happen, that there is nothing to be sad about...that she was never his...


"Navneet, were you seriously making me fool or...??", the voice from other side cracked into the phone, and uttered the unsaid, the one which must not be said....the forbidden...or as he thought...

"Obviously, you really thought I would propose you?? :O lol... naah girl... It was a prank and just a prank!!! IT has nothing to do with reality.", he recited the words he had been practicing for last four days, ever since he made this leak proof plan... April 1st was the perfect occasion to do it.... The three letters would either mean everything to her or he will turn it into a prank.... When he said them, she went silent and his greatest fears of the inevitable came true...so he had to switch to planB.. the prank thing.... he wondered what he would have said had she said yes.... "What if....", he smiled to himself.

"Navneet...you there??", the voice again brought him into reality, the harsh reality that meant she wasn't least interested in him. He sobered up and braced himself."Navneet, were you really joking??", she asked again..."Ofcourse re !!! We are friends na..and its my duty to pull your leg every now and then!!! ", he said with the same deceptive smile and tone that would be his forte for coming years...."And besides, ki fark painda hai!!! Whether I was joking or not, you wouldn't have accepted it anyways!!",he blurted out....and cursed himself the very next moment for doing so....

"Navneet..??? Tell me please.. I need to know, coz I do not think you were just joking"
"Naah re...seriously... I swear!!!", and he swore false things....something that he will do now all his life to hide things....perhaps he should tell her the truth....perhaps that's the right thing to do....but as he said..."ki fark painda hai"

"Okay...as you wish....hmmmm... I thought...", and she paused in between...

"What?? That I love you?? "

"hmmmm..dunno..you said it making it feel so real that I believed you"

"hmmm... imagine if I wasn't bluffing, then what would you have done??"

"Navneet!! you know na..you know it all na??"

"Hmmmm...ryt...anyways...leave it..."

"Could you??"

"Yes...it was just a prank and let's forget it here and now...", he said with a sore throat...

"hmmmm..okkkk..."

"ok"

"okay chal have to hang up else someone would wake up and wonder what I am doing this late in the balcony"

"Okay...bbye...take care.. "

"Bye Navneet"

"Good night"

"good night"

He hangs up....and sits on the wall of hostel roof....thinking what he just did.... He proposed the girl he loved madly for last 4 years...and turned it into a prank..."It was the right thing to do....didn't you know she would be shocked to know this??didn't you understand it was foolish to do in first place???You saw na her reaction...she wasnt saying anything and once you convinced her that it was a prank, she was back to normal"

"But she was suspicious of your prank thing", a faint voice spoke from within, the voice of his heart.

"Well, I think I convinced her pretty well", the mind spoke.

He watched his mind and heart fight for something which they would never be able to understand....HIM....and smiled.... he knew this is just the beginning of a life long dispute...


He saw the screen saver in his cell...it read...

00:45 hours
April 01, 2004

He- The Voice Tuesday, November 10, 2009

He sits in the corner, sipping his black coffee,
Wearing an indifferent expression, neither violent nor meek,
He watches the people, running away from themselves,
He wonders at them, "Dunno how that helps",

He has seen a lot and has gone through much,
He pretends he shut it,but it opens at a touch,
The evenings of laughter, the mornings of joy,
Sometimes feeling as if he was treated like a toy,

He sees people thinking that they will forget,
He laughs at these fools, and wished they never met,
He sips his black coffee, storms stirring inside,
He must choose an option.now he must decide,

To be with these people and be like just them,
Or run away from everything,turn all in the flames,
I don't know what he will do, but I will be with him,
For he is the voice the screaming within.

PS:- I know off late my poems might have lost that touch. It happens. I do not feel like writing anything romantic anymore.... may be some personal reasons, but these things are not anymore for me.... I might even stop writing... It takes too much to bring on paper what goes inside my mind. I do not write fictional poetry. I write what I have seen. I write my own experiences..... perhaps that is the reason I do not wish to write anymore... I am fed up of being at the receiving end all the time and telling about it on my blog...may be I am ashamed of myself...of failing time and again.... May be... It always happens :(

Just pray this was the last time I fell for someone...I wish either I could never rise...or rise so much that I could never see anyone worthy enough to fall for...


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Prey Monday, November 9, 2009

Well...a poem finally...a dark one this time...dunno how much justice i have done with my dark instincts...You're the judge












There he spotted her, the prey of the evening,
laughing among her friends, her aura lightening the dark night,
He watches her moves, the ways she speaks,
he plans for the act, the one which always rules,

He moves towards her, with an innocent smile on his face,
beneath which lies a cruel intention, of which no one can find a trace,
He takes silent steps, the prey completely ignorant of it,
his eyes mocking the atmosphere, like a snake's slit,

She's talking to him, amazed by his charm,never suspecting the reality,
He stands by her side, holding a beer, cruel face hidden by frailty,
"What is this man,where he came from", she wonders in her mind,
His charm and wits, working their way, making her logics blind,

He prepares to leave,she follows him out, fallen for him all the way,
never thinking it might be a trap,that she might be just a prey,
The streets are dark,the lights are out,they are all alone in the night,
As he moves towards her,preparing for the kill, ready to strike with all might.